(This happened on the week of Oct.17 . I have been so busy that I haven't had the time to publish this post.) 

Today I felt like the first day again, in the sense of teaching the lesson. I was tired and nervous and not prepared to take the challenge of teaching the lesson. I wasn't aware of how important learning preschool songs was, I mean I knew these songs, but at the same time I didn't and I felt discouraged by it. Ms. L asked me to do the routine with the children and although I have been observing her for four weeks now and knew the routine and what to do, I froze and forgot what I was supposed to do. I felt discouraged by the fact that I couldn't do a simple task like that and felt that Ms. L was a bit disappointed. In the afternoon, it was a bit better, but I couldn't sing the "Itsy Bitsy Spider" song or read the book using the rhyme of the song either. I did ask the children to help me out and they were surprisingly happy to do so and that made me feel grateful to them, but I know that I need to prepare myself before I do  my student teaching experience. I'm not there to only observe but to also take charge of my performance as a future educator and learn from my mistakes, and I sure did learn from today's experience. I think that teaching involves more than loving to teach children, you need to know your content and feel confident. It's alright if once in a while you need to ask for help, even if has to be from your own children. If there is something that I learned today is that they are willing to help out and even excited to do so.
Although I felt discouraged and insecure, I learned that to be a better teacher, you must first evaluate yourself based on your performance and knowledge and then create a plan to deal with this and change or create a strategy to make the experience a learning one for both the students and yourself.

Diary Education